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four out

four weeks from saturday until i get to hold my little sissy's hand and go through this beautiful castle together.

i'm oh so engaged

i feel like i've been engaged for 98234783 years and that it's all i've ever done my entire life haha. it just needs to be here already

i'm so lucky to have the beautiful mother that i do. 

she has been so excited for me through all this planning and has been nothing but a sweet angel full of the cutest ideas.

both my parents have been so supportive and generous and i'm totally spoiled.

and thats all.

except also the closer we get the more i can't even stand it to just be married! 

i fall more in love every single day and starting a life together feels like a dream come true. 

39 days

our engagement pictures

Welp here's a sum up of our engagement session with Gideon Photography!!

I was pretty excited about how they turned out and could stare at jordans cute face all day. 

and also… starting to wonder what we're going to do with 98237493 pictures of the two of us that we've printed for the wedding :0

my ring

funny story, ring shopping actually marked the first bride-zilla break down of the wedding planning events. in my mind I was so so excited for this and, naturally, i wanted jordan to be so so excited too. and if he wasn't so so excited than i felt so so guilty for spending a lot of money on something he wasn't even so so excited for. you get my drift? so i sit there and break down into pointless tears and tell him to please be so so excited or it wasn't even worth it. and cute jordan, i kid you not, tried to tell me that he was SO happy to ring shop but tried to describe a situation of how excited I would be if we were out shopping for a motorcycle for him, which i think had an opposite affect than he wanted because why would i ever want to buy him a motorcycle ;) does that make sense? no. but neither do a lot of things when a girl has engaged-brain. which i seriously am telling you is a real live thing.

why i love my engagement ring

i get to wear this beautiful piece of jewelry on my little finger that tells everyone, i have my person. my ring is special because it's my outward statement of my commitment. people who don't know me, know that i have devoted my heart to someone without even asking, or knowing my name. it's not just about being "taken" it's about declaring that i am choosing to spend eternity with my soulmate, and i'm proud of it. the concept is romantic, and sweet, and loyal, and that is why i could hardly wait to have jord slip it on my finger. my ring has no beginning and no end, it goes around forever just like the love i do and will continue to share with my soon to be hubs! that is seriously why i love my ring so much. 

(and jord totally agreed when i told him how duh it was way more than just a piece of jewelry)

the fact that it is rose gold, beautiful, dainty, sparkly and everything i could have ever imagined is just a major perk to what it truly symbolizes to me. 

photo: Gideon Photography

cake topper

**i'm a detail person.

**i get more excited about my adorable little love-bird cake topper than, well a lot of things. (isn't it cute!?)

**i discover there is something new to (argue about) discuss with my fiancé every single day.

**i really really really love my engagement pictures and will probably post five thousand "sneak peaks"  of them until the day I die. 

**i'm super indecisive. i make decisions. then second guess them, then remake them again, then go crazy and break out into an entire constellation on my face, yeeesh.

**also, if you ever are planning a wedding. hit me up. i have researched every single photographer, videographer, venue, caterer, decor, EVERYTHING from ogden to cotton wood a thousand times before i made my decisions. so ya. i can tell you where everything is and how much and what style and all of it.

**all i can think about is all of the little DIY projects i want to make for my weddddddding… wedding planning and homework get in many conflicts, they actually really don't like each other at all. enemies.

**i have the best mom EVER. and sisters and friends and everyone who has been patient with me and enlightened me with so many beautiful ideas!

**i have a constant internal battle where i pray that there will be gorgeous little snowflakes falling on my november wedding day, and then at the same time a sunny, warm, turkey-bowl appropriate weather day. ughh.

**i'm really blessed and extremely excited to experience the temple, my "i'm going there someday" is finally that someday! && the dedication of the beautiful ogden temple today just made me reflect on it again.

**i have the cutest, most funny & totally weird fiancé. and i sure do love him!! and love that we keep figuring things out about each other (and laugh about it cause.. man it's actually a hoot)

**i'm currently in love with this cozy rainy weather, and it's putting me in the best mood eva.

**my mom made the cutest fall cake, and we stayed up until midnight and celebrated a "cake party midnight" it was so fun. even though the cake was really dry and definitely had better curb appeal than taste factor. 

**i drug my bridesmaid alllllll over utah with me yesterday to help me figure stuff out, and she's the best and i love her.

**happy sunday, and that is all!

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